I was raised in a Christian home by wonderful committed Christian parents. We attended church three times a week and sometimes more. I remember sitting in sermon during Vacation Bible School at a very young age (perhaps five or six) when I realized that I was a sinner and went forward during the invitation and prayed to receive Christ as my Savior. I went to church camp and VBS every summer; I was heavily involved in my youth group; I hung out with my Christian friends all through high school where I was involved in Youth Alive. At age 16 I preached my first sermon in front of a congregation and was making plans to attend Bible College and Seminary.
Those plans took a detour and at age twenty I entered the US Army and proudly served for four years. My enlistment was up in January, 1990, and I was honorably discharged from the service. By the time I turned twenty-five that September, I privately declared to myself that I was done with church, done with Christianity (and religion in general) and labeled myself an agnostic.
These changes in my beliefs and behavior did not happen overnight, but they occurred nonetheless. Why? The short version is that once I entered the army and was, for the first time in my life, removed from the Christian ‘ghetto’, I was exposed to the real world of conflicting religions and worldviews. I was thrown together with atheists, Not to mention, the world seemed to offer much that I wanted that conflicted with living a consistently Christian lifestyle. Many of the Christian leaders that I had respected while growing up weren’t measuring up, so why should I bother myself?
For many years I was a happy apathetic agnostic whose only concern was fulfilling whatever desire I wanted that was within my ability to do so. There was just one problem: I was a news junkie. I loved to watched the news and praised my own desire to stay informed on the goings on in the world. Lots of people are like that, but with me, I began to realize that the world was a complete mess: Columbine, Waco, our President committing adultery with an intern in the Oval Office, the first Word Trade Center bombing, Oklahoma City, religious wars, turmoil in the Middle East, rape, murder, theft, crime, and eventually 9/11. Evil and greed seemed rampant and there didn’t seem to be no end in sight. I came to the conclusion that there was something seriously wrong with the human race, and that included myself as I realized that I didn’t even measure up to my own low moral standards.
I became less of an apathetic agnostic and became open once more to spiritual questions and answers. What I know now that I didn’t know then is that God, through his Holy Spirit, was using what is called ‘apologetics’ to draw me back to Christ. I began an earnest search for answers to my questions and began to seriously weigh the truth claims of different religions and worldviews. Again, the short version of the story is that I came to the conclusion that the truth claims of Christianity held up to scrutiny and best reflected what I knew about reality, and because I considered myself to be on the side of truth (John 18:37) I recommitted my life to Christ (praise God!).
Not long after, I was browsing in a Christian bookstore and happened to run across and purchased a book with the interesting title: The Case for Christ, by Lee Strobel, a former atheist and investigative reporter. This book was in the genre of what I now know as ‘Christian Apologetics’, and I began to devour everything I could find on the topic. Once again, to make a longer story short, my personal studies in apologetics culminated in the idea for The Poached Egg (TPE), an internet resource for Christians and seekers to aid them in their search for truth and to point them to even more resources that might otherwise be difficult to find if one didn’t know what they were looking for.
I launched TPE in 2010, and since then it has received over 6,000,000 page views and has been visited from nearly every country in the world, including countries where Christianity is restricted or banned altogether. Over the years I’ve received many e-mails from believers who have shared with me how TPE helped them through times of doubt or with specific questions or struggles they were dealing with; from Christian school teachers, Sunday School teachers, youth leaders, and small group leaders who use TPE as a teaching aid in their classes or group; and even from pastors who have sought help in integrating apologetics training into their church to help disciple their congregation. I’m thankful that God has enabled me to provide this resource for so many people.
That is the one thing we must not say. A man who was merely a man and said the sort of things Jesus said would not be a great moral teacher. He would either be a lunatic — on the level with the man who says he is a poached egg — or else he would be the Devil of Hell. You must make your choice.